God, I'm Running for Your Heart

Soul on Fire by Third Day has been playing in my head all day. In fact, as I type this I've got my headphones on, this song cranked up and on repeat!

I woke up this morning humming this tune and simply can't get the melody and the lyrics out of my mind. In fact, the good Lord gave me an image that I'll need to figure out how to put image to paper using my art supplies to bring it to life. Until then, I wanted to share the lyrics so we can give this much needed food some thought.

God, I'm running for Your heart
I'm running for Your heart
Till I am a soul on fire
Lord, I'm longing for Your ways
I'm waiting for the day
When I am a soul on fire
Till I am a soul on fire
[x2]

Lord, restore the joy I had
I have wandered, bring me back
In this darkness, lead me through
Until all I see is You

God, I'm running for Your heart
I'm running for Your heart
Till I am a soul on fire
Lord, I'm longing for Your ways
I'm waiting for the day
When I am a soul on fire
Till I am a soul on fire

Lord, let me burn for You again
Let me return to You again
And Lord, let me burn for You again
And let me return to You again

God, I'm running for Your heart
I'm running for Your heart
Till I am a soul on fire
Lord, I'm longing for Your ways
I'm waiting for the day
When I am a soul on fire

God, I'm running for Your heart
I'm running for Your heart
Till I am a soul on fire
I wanna be
Till I am a soul on fire
Till I am a soul on fire

This Christmas season has been hard for me to focus on Christ. I'm out of my element, with decorating habits being thrown to the wind because everything I've used in the past to decorate our home sits 2,000 miles away in a storage unit. I waver between wanting to buy things to replace everything sitting in storage and knowing that it's not the “stuff” that's important, but it's hard.

I find that I'm struggling with the need to find firm footing in this unknown territory. I want this place I'm in to feel like home when at every turn I am reminded that I'm not home. Where we live is temporary and I don't know when our lives will permit permanence.

The irony of what I've just typed isn't lost on me. I know physically this is only a temporary home and the “stuff” that I'm seeking to make me feel at home here has been stripped away for a reason. God is looking to create a permanent home in me.

Being uncomfortable creates an opportunity for me to focus more clearly on God than on the “stuff”. He's right. I know that. It's been at least 6 months since I really spent time with God, focusing on Him and His will for me. Sometimes it's like that in my life. I get busy, succumb to the responsibilities of life and lose my way with Him.

But in His gracious love for us all, we are never forgotten by Him. In fact, He seeks to draw us closer to Him every minute of the day.

For me, today was the day He so gently reminded me, through a song to come back to Him. Reminding me of the hunger and joy I have when He is my focus, my guiding light, my reason for the day.

I read the words of the song and my heart hurts at their truth. I need His joy for I am spiritually lost. I feel like I'm in the dark and I know the only way to see the light is to pick up my running shoes and run back to Him. He waits for me, for you.

There's a Christ-hunger that's been dampened by the trials of this life but if I were to be honest, I want so desperately to be in a place with God that supersedes everything else, a hunger that can only be overcome with His love. I know I've been distracted, my soul is empty and my days have lost their joy.

But there is hope.

God.

Almighty, loving Father Above.

He will restore all that has been taken by this world. He will give us joy and His love. All we need to do is to run back to Him.

Until next time, I am off to recreate the image He gave me earlier in my art journal.

Blessings & Best wishes,